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A Saturday Post

I’m hungover. And I was listening to Greystone Gardens. I realized that I’ve only listened to Greystone 3 times since the band broke up and two of the three were while hungover (the other was while predrinking before seeing Rob

Posted in sobriety, Songwriting

Hangovers

A lot of people pride themselves on working while hungover. They’re insistent and defensive that they work as hard or harder than anyone. It’s like running uphill in 40 pounds of body armour. Yeah, you’re working hard but the other

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Dopamine Cycles

One of the ways in which I think I’m quite lucky is that I’m a terrible cynic and when something stops making me happy I accept it as the natural course of this miserable life and stop doing it. I

Posted in Depression & Suicide, sobriety

Updated sobriety

When I quit drinking part of it was being scared I’d turn into the drunk guy I hate, the aging Wolfman’s regarding who talked too much, ¬†laughed at his own jokes, roped people into conversations, and smelled bad. And rather

Posted in Pragmatism, sobriety

Sobriety day zero again

This story ends where it starts. I woke up on Red’s couch, not alone, not dressed, had some coffee, then some rum, one roommate likes me more (which I enjoyed), the other a lot less (which I enjoyed more), and

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Sobriety day 39

Had dinner with Jay Tuesday night. We talked about my instant decay of positive experiences so I noticed on the train ride home when I started to decompress but it hasn’t gone away completely, surprisingly. There was a moment at

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Sobriety Day 36

Today was awful. And it was made much more awful by the fact that it didn’t start awful. I woke up and I was happy, I took the train and I was happy, I was so happy it felt real,

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