I had 4 fresh canvii remaining and I was seriously considering painting the same 3 things I painted last night in hope that I’d do better – and therefore feel better – but I was also scared that I’d do…

Worst, angriest session yet. See, I got new brushes that I thought would enhance what I’d done so well lately. But, as I see now, a different brush is a different brush and you have to learn each brush like…

2 of the 3 paintings felt like they got ruined at the last minute. Like, they felt wonderful and then with one line it was into rescue mode and then… resignation. Now the last minute fuck up on this one…

I’ve mentioned the first-one-best-one when it happens. The first painting always gets the most patience and patience is currently the strongest indicator that a painting is going to turn out well – although I can already think exceptions of course.…

Okay now I declare an official Pain Period again. Two days in a row, mid-painting, I’ve contemplated taking something immediately down to the dumpster. But let’s see if there’s any nice things to say anyway… Nope. It’s like if the…

I don’t have official criteria for being in a pain period but holy crap I hated everything last night. But also I know poor sleep leads to poor mood, poor mood to poor painting, poor painting to worse mood. Anyway…

This ref is difficult because she’s looking up past the camera, giving her a pig nose in all my early attempts; and she’s primarily back lit. As for this attempt in particular I think I conveyed the upward angle, could…

So I started an abstract, like I like. And seriously the nose is the hardest part of this every time. So I did some skull work, like I like. And it accidently looks like clown make up. I did the…