Coping Skills – Faith G. Harper Teeny tiny little book meant to be giving immediate practical advice. The language is informal and jokey. I feel it was beneficial to read. The book was the reminder that anxiety is an anatomical…
Monthly Archives: May 2022
Perfectionism & Fear Of Failure
When I watched this video I immediately identified with a Fear of Failure moreso than a Hope for Achievement type personality. I’m already learning my way around my pessimistic perfectionism – the fact that I want to do things right…
Posted in Depression & Suicide
The Tombstone Test
I’ve got to write about something that I’ve written about repeatedly in the past. I don’t this bothers anyone but me or you’d actually notice but I’ve just got to get this disclaimer out of my head. Hopefully I can…
Posted in Depression & Suicide, fitness
Paintings! Two of ’em, yesterday
Not actually both yesterday but if anyone recognizes the phrase “Two of’em, yesterday” you’re my people. Anyway there was actually a huge gap between these two as a I lost the habit of painting first thing in the morning but…
Posted in Painting
Grasping At Happiness
Sam Harris mentioned, on the Waking Up app, something about grasping at happiness; ruining your mood by wanting to be happier. And I thought, yeah I do that, and I had a great example of it soon after when we…
Posted in Depression & Suicide, Pragmatism
Sobriety day 140/day 0
I’m out at a ski resort the night before a wedding so it’s time to break the streak. The spectrum of my worry going-in was: drinking and immediately feeling a return to suicidal depression, maybe being a weepy bitch, and…
Posted in Pragmatism
Re-Parenting Oneself
I was learning about the idea of re-parenting, or self-parenting, sometime in the last few years and I got it, intuitively, I was able to imagine my current myself comforting myself as a wounded kid. But it came up again…
Posted in Depression & Suicide
How To Initiate Conversations (Or Really How Not To)
First, as a disclaimer, let me say I fucking hate people who say they hate small talk. Get off my side, you’re unbearable self important twats. And I have to say that because what I’m about to say is so…
Posted in Pragmatism
How To Speedrun Gilmore Girls
No one has the mental space or the time to take on a whole freakin’ series these days, it’s not 2011. Doesn’t matter who recommended it or how classic and beloved it is. We watch shows we’ve seen already instead.…
Posted in Pop Culture
Papering Over
I noticed something strange in my relationship to food that I think extrapolates to a deeper problem. I have this vegan all-in-one boosted protein powder I love, it really has the magic make-tummy-feel-good power. When we had covid we got…
Posted in Depression & Suicide
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