Fair warning to readers, this is a drunken, rambling, reminiscence that I deeply enjoyed writing but might degrade into nonsense in certain spots. This thought really got going when fall came around and I changed up the downloads on my…
Monthly Archives: December 2021
This Week’s Painting (black canvas week)
Holidays and blah blah but I am still painting and for a special treat I got some black canvii. Off to a good start with that first portrait, I liked it maybe 6/10 at the time and probably only slightly…
Posted in Painting
Other Artists I’d Like To See Get The Beyond Van Gogh Treatment
The Beyond Van Gogh exhibit is a neat thing. If you didn’t catch it’s pop culture moment here’s the promo video: It was in fact awe inspiring, I was wide-eyed and silent, I teared up at one point. My only…
Posted in Pragmatism
Today’s Painting
Today was a good day. I got past something of a curse I go through. See, I don’t do a lot of warm-ups or sketches before I paint because I’d either put too much focus on the sketch and then…
Posted in Painting
Today’s Painting (sweet relief from the pain plateu)
So all of last week was deep struggle and I wrote about that. When that happens for too long it’s best to try something, anything, other than what you’ve been doing. Now I actually don’t like YouTube for painting advice.…
Posted in Painting
I Need To Stop Turning Disappointments Into Character Flaws
There’s something from the memory pits that jumped out at me this morning. My desk when I was a kid. I remember this because I was asked about it one time when we moved. There was a corner where I’d…
Posted in Depression & Suicide
I Don’t Want To Do Stuff That Doesn’t Matter
I realized I’ve lost the yearning to do something important with my life; that teenage urge to do something that matters. Meanwhile I still feel tremendous resent about non-mattering stuff. Not a super shocking sentiment I know, I think everyone…
Posted in Depression & Suicide, Pragmatism
Recent Paintings (A Week Of The Struggle)
So, here’s the paintings from last week: I worked on both of them for 3 days each. Now, both are better than their previous renditions and technically surely the best they’ve ever been but… I don’t really care. They’re just…
Posted in Depression & Suicide, Painting
Recent Paintings (And The Solution To All-Work-No-Play… it’s play.)
End of last week I was working diligently on my project which requires an ambitious amount of realism and accuracy and I was st-ressing. You can see increased focus on perspective in the Windmill and Clock references, if you compare…
Posted in Painting
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