And what I don’t like about it. I’m mentally preparing myself for all the shit I’m going to take for this so try to remember these are thoughts not judgements, I’m not casting myself as objectively superior to nerds anymore…
Monthly Archives: December 2016
Sobriety day zero again
This story ends where it starts. I woke up on Red’s couch, not alone, not dressed, had some coffee, then some rum, one roommate likes me more (which I enjoyed), the other a lot less (which I enjoyed more), and…
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Sobriety day 39
Had dinner with Jay Tuesday night. We talked about my instant decay of positive experiences so I noticed on the train ride home when I started to decompress but it hasn’t gone away completely, surprisingly. There was a moment at…
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Sobriety Day 36
Today was awful. And it was made much more awful by the fact that it didn’t start awful. I woke up and I was happy, I took the train and I was happy, I was so happy it felt real,…
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Sobriety day 33 – Day after the Reckless Heroes Show
Near the end of the night, when the endorphins were faded, I thought about how I’d played music I don’t care about for a band I’m not actually in, how there were people there for whom the most generous term…
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Sobriety Day 30
Final Reckless Heroes practice before the show. I was super late because a jackass decided to hang off the mirror of a C-Train, fall, and get pinned. When I got there though we tore into the set, it’s a half…
Posted in Pragmatism, sobriety
Sobriety day 21
Yesterday was a tough day. I went out for my usual morning walk and felt a bit down, normal for my pre-coffee self. I had an impulsive feeling that I want to throw my life away. Which made me want…
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Sobriety day 20
Another meaningless milestone number but still feels a bit surprising. Coffee with Josanna last night was great. She has her own history and insight with depression so we get to skip a lot of explaining. We hit on the idea…
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Sobriety Day 18
Jesus, is that right? where do the days go? I’m going for coffee with Mandi today. Yesterday I was worried I was over her, that it would be mundane and underwhelming. Boring even. But also yesterday I bought clothes because…
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Sobriety Day 16
I don’t know if it’s really the sobriety or not but I got extremely depressed yesterday. I did just pass the 2 week mark and supposedly that’s where depression is likely, along with symptoms I don’t have like sleep disruptions…
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